| Racked and ready to roll! |
Goal: Beat last year's time of 8:28
Result: 8:18
I wasn't very excited about doing Musselman a third time but signed up anyway to avoid the FOMO that was sure to grip me if I missed a Team Z road trip. My whole attitude leading up to the race was pretty lackadaisical. My biggest issue was a fairly small one: whether to bring my road bike or Stella. M'man has hills and false flats, but nothing too severe. So I opted to bring Stella.
Swim
| Lake Geneva |
Goal: Under 47:19
Result: 50:27
I really enjoyed the swim. It wasn't a wave roller coaster like last year, but it still had some rollers to keep things interesting. We
seemed to be fighting the rollers head-on on the way out to the first
turn buoy, and I felt like I was having to work a little harder to move
forward.
| The final stretch of the swim |
I managed to keep up with a small group of swimmers, but stayed to their right to avoid contact. When we turned into the canal, I didn't feel the same "current assist" we had last year; the water didn't seem to be moving at all. But it was nice and clear--loved it!
I finished 3 minutes slower than last year, which is ironic given all the extra swimming I've done this year to prepare for the Bay. Have I actually gotten slower? How is that possible?
Bike
Actual: 4:03:33 (made it by 3 minutes)
As soon as I rode out of the park it started raining. A few miles later it wasn't just casually raining, it was thunderstorming. We were getting hammered! I've ridden in the rain before, but never like this. I kept seeing flashes of lightning quickly followed by booming thunder. As crazy as it sounds, I actually enjoyed it. Nothing like throwing in a weather hazard to keep things interesting!
Eventually the storm slacked off to just plain old rain. I tried to stay aero as much as possible and hammer the hills. When I turned onto Swick--the road with the worst hill--I was surprised by my reaction. The Swick hill didn't look so bad ass anymore! Seriously, after the Garret Gran Fondo and the Wisconsin Training Ride, this hill looked tame!
With one hour to go until the time cutoff of 12:30, I still had12 miles
ahead of me. The rain had stopped by now. All I had to do was keep my
speed above 12 mph to make it. Totally doable.
Still, those last 12 miles were no picnic; they included some false flats and hills....just enough to drop my speed below 12 at times. So I pedaled as hard as I could when I wasn't on a hill, trying to go as fast as possible to make up the difference. My legs were really feeling it.
I cruised into the park with about 3 minutes to spare. Had I started the race at 7:15, like last year, I wouldn't have cut it so close. (Yes, I'm bitter.) As I crossed the timing mat, one of the volunteers asked if I was going to "continue on." Hell yeah I was continuing on! What a ridiculous question.
Still, those last 12 miles were no picnic; they included some false flats and hills....just enough to drop my speed below 12 at times. So I pedaled as hard as I could when I wasn't on a hill, trying to go as fast as possible to make up the difference. My legs were really feeling it.
I cruised into the park with about 3 minutes to spare. Had I started the race at 7:15, like last year, I wouldn't have cut it so close. (Yes, I'm bitter.) As I crossed the timing mat, one of the volunteers asked if I was going to "continue on." Hell yeah I was continuing on! What a ridiculous question.
Run
Goal: Under 3 hours
Result: 3:16:37
I was happy to have made the bike cutoff and now it was just a matter of getting it done. My legs were trashed, but I knew they'd loosen up after the first few miles. Heading out of the park I ran into some fastie Zs cruising toward the finish line. It was good to see familiar faces!
When I turned off the main road in town, I was all by myself. Mile after mile, it was just me. No one in sight ahead of me, no one passing me. And this is when the negative thoughts started creeping in. I tried to cancel them out with positives, but this time it wasn't working.
The thing about Musselman is that only the people in the first swim wave
get a full 8 hours to finish. For everyone else it goes down by 5 minute
increments per swim wave, and I happened to be in the last wave that went off at
7:30. That meant less time to make the bike cutoff, less time to make
the finish line. The bottomline: I had 7.5 hours to get this done....and I knew that for me, it wasn't possible.
It isn't this way at all 70.3's. Take Eagleman, for example.
According to the 2012 athlete's guide, the last swim wave goes off at
8:30 and the race officially ends at 5:00, giving the people in the last wave 8.5 hours to finish. Same with Vineman 70.3. The last wave goes off at 8:38, the bike cutoff is a generous 5.5 hours later and the race ends at 5:08!
I
realize everyone winds up in the last wave at some point. We all have to
deal with it. So while it may not seem fair, I get it that someone
has to go last. If I don't like it, I don't have to participate. And
this time around, that's precisely what I was contemplating. For the first time since I started triathlon, being last or close to
last really bothered me...and I started thinking I was done with it all.
Let's Finish This Thing!
Let's Finish This Thing!
Well, whether I was done with triathlon or not, I had no intention of quitting the race. My mental state sucked, but I was still moving forward. A couple of miles from the finish line I finally saw another runner, walking it in. When I caught up to him I said, "Come on, let's run together. We have less than two miles to go!"
Mitch was in a bad place --he told me he had had a bad day and was hurting. His swim sucked and he'd flatted twice on the bike. Now his knees were hurting and his energy was zapped. But he had DNF'd this race last year and he was just happy to be closing in on a finish this time around. This would be his first 70.3 finish...and I could tell he was proud.
My
problems suddenly seemed to disappear. I had enjoyed the swim, hadn't had any flats on the bike, and I wasn't really in much physical pain during the run-- it was all in my head. Now I was in a position to help someone else, someone who was
suffering more than I. The run took on new meaning as I focused on
making these last two miles a bit easier for Mitch.
I gave him a pep talk and told him "my team" would be waiting for us at the finish line to cheer us in. I told him Team Z is there for everyone, right down to the very last finisher, and they would be there for him too.
Sure enough, "my team" was there-- ringing cowbells, clapping, screaming, and cheering us in. The official finish line, clock, and timing mat were gone and the volunteers were busy dismantling what was left of the finishers chute, but we had our own human finishers chute to run through, courtesy of Team Z. Mitch dropped back as we approached that final stretch, letting me go first. I turned around and waved him forward, making sure he knew that the high fives were for him too.
After running beneath a canopy of arms, Greg was waiting with our bling. I took the medal and kept running to the spot where the timing mat and official finish line used to be. I turned around and saw Mitch. The look on his face was priceless. It reminded me of my own first 70.3 finish.
This is the part of the story where I'm supposed to say that all of the negative thoughts faded away after such a rock star finish; that would be the perfect happy ending to this story. But I wasn't feeling it. I had beaten last year's time by 10 minutes, so why did I just want to cry? It wasn't like me to be this negative. It used to be that just finishing was enough. Why couldn't I be happy with that now?
The Ironman Loser Effect
I gave it some thought and came up with this: After making the cutoff at IMAZ, the thought of not making a half
Ironman cutoff really bothered me. As a news director once told me, you're either
on your way up or you're on your way out. And if you've already been to "the top" --an Ironman finish line-- then there's no more up to go, right? So maybe you're on your way out. Maybe you're done with triathlon. Or maybe you're just suffering from The Ironman Loser Effect (yes, I just make this stuff up LOL).
The Ironman Loser Effect typically strikes the year after an Ironman. You aren't in Ironman shape, so you feel like a loser. You're not as fast as you were last year, so you feel like a loser. After making the ultimate cutoff, you're not okay with missing "lesser" cutoffs....because you don't want to feel like a loser. You're wondering, why bother? What now?
The Ironman Loser Effect typically strikes the year after an Ironman. You aren't in Ironman shape, so you feel like a loser. You're not as fast as you were last year, so you feel like a loser. After making the ultimate cutoff, you're not okay with missing "lesser" cutoffs....because you don't want to feel like a loser. You're wondering, why bother? What now?
I couldn't shake the feeling during the ride home. I'm guessing I'm just burned out. Maybe I need a break? I've already done 13 races and biking events this year and it's only July. Perhaps I went overboard in my effort to avoid the inevitable post-Ironman letdown.
The Happy Ending
Every story needs a happy ending, right? Well, here's my happy ending. After I got home, I emailed the race director and asked for my swim and bike splits. I mentioned that I finished in 8:18 and just wanted to figure out my times. He not only gave me my split times, he posted them along with all the other results...giving me an official finish time! I didn't get a DNF by my name...And it turns out, I didn't finish last. I actually beat two people in the 35 - 39 age group. Even though they had slower times than me, they both had official finish times because -- you guessed it, they were in an earlier wave, the 7:15.
Ah well, I guess all is well. Time to crank up the Tussey training!
The Happy Ending
Every story needs a happy ending, right? Well, here's my happy ending. After I got home, I emailed the race director and asked for my swim and bike splits. I mentioned that I finished in 8:18 and just wanted to figure out my times. He not only gave me my split times, he posted them along with all the other results...giving me an official finish time! I didn't get a DNF by my name...And it turns out, I didn't finish last. I actually beat two people in the 35 - 39 age group. Even though they had slower times than me, they both had official finish times because -- you guessed it, they were in an earlier wave, the 7:15.
Ah well, I guess all is well. Time to crank up the Tussey training!


















